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16 November 2009 @ 10:03 pm
I promise I didn't die. I've been busy and actually have just been mostly updating my other journal. I would say there was nothing fandom-related but there really was. It's all I've really been into lately.

I still haven't published the only thing I've written for either fandom. I keep telling myself I'll publish it someday, it's not like I don't have accounts, I've just been lazy and a bit unsure. I know I can attempt to go through moderated forums because several people have read it, so I know it doesn't have blindingly terrible errors, but since I don't have a "real" beta-reader, I don't feel like I should post it there. So that basically I just need to figure out how to use it better and then I'll attempt to slay that dragon.

Although I've been talking about my SSHG one-shot, I'm actually in more of a Labyrinth mood so maybe I'll attempt something for that.

In any case, it will probably be a long time before I come back, but hopefully when I do I'll be farther than I am right now. It feels like a lot is going on right now. When I get it all figured out, you'll know :)
Current Location: Pretending I'm doing HW
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: David Bowie - Underground
23 August 2009 @ 10:43 am
school starts. I'm trying hard to get my first SSHG fiction ready and posted. Four people have read it so far, but each person read it beforehand. I've been changing it on my own, little things here and there. Even with after I get a beta, I can't help wanting to try to make everything as perfect as possible so that most of it is my work. I know what grammar rules I know, but it would be good if I didn't make little mistakes so I could focus on learning what I don't know. It might also be prudent to get any plot holes and inconsistencies covered.

I already feel a bit out of my league when trying to write for these fandoms because most of the people who put their age are much older than me and I feel that means they are much more experienced. It'll be hard to try and keep up with all that. So many good ideas have already been used and some ideas overused (although I don't think that can really be helped). I feel like I'm at a distinc disadvantage. But I'll try anyway.

It's only the morning and I'm sleepy. However am I going to survive when school starts again?
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Dir en grey - THE FINAL
18 August 2009 @ 10:09 pm
or am I starting to talk a bit like a British person? I'm sure if I knew one, they wouldn't agree with me, but I can't help but feel more and more phrases slip into my American speaking. Of course, I'll never say completely British things like swear phrases and what-not, but my writing and speaking style has changed a bit as a result.

I really am quite hopeless. I feel like a lost puppy. Right now my endeavor to become an Internet published author of these two fandoms is not going so well. I've been getting the sole help of one person (she's completely wonderful, by the way. Only someone with a heart of gold could put up with me and say it doesn't bother), but all I'm doing is pestering her with questions. Without direct advice or instructions, I'm at a loss of what to do.

And I'm here talking about it on a journal no one reads. How sad can I get...?
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: the GazettE - CALM ENVY
16 August 2009 @ 10:39 pm
I'll final come out of my little cave to see the light of day. It's amazing how I can stay on the computer the whole weekend and just read stories online. After work, I'm going to go out with a friend after a long time away from...I guess just going out and seeing people. Work doesn't really count, because it's a job. But if not for that, I'd probably see even less sun. It's amazing I even still have a tan. But I guess that little time four days a week does keep it up. Can't say anything about my legs, though, since they never see the sun ever.

I have an update on my story, even though I'm currently not talking to anyone online yet. It seems to have passed the prompt-giver but now I'm kind of struggling about what to do next. LJ requires me to split the story into five parts because the space limits, but I only have three generally nice divisions. I may just have to link it in the end. I've been given a good amount of choices to choose from both moderated and unmoderated sites. I'll give it some thought.

I wasn't originally planning on getting one, but I've made the decision to search for a beta reader. I admit that my grammar isn't as good as I would like it and not taking English classes in a while hasn't help that. I can imagine I'll be right embarrassed once I pick it up again and realize how much I really don't know.

Anyway, so that's all for now.
Current Location: Stuck in the middle
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: David Bowie - As the World Falls Down
10 August 2009 @ 09:47 pm
I think that being into two fandoms with hot older men has changed my perspective on men in general. At least fictional ones...

I'm watching a drama right now, and of course, the main girl has two guys going after her, right? There's the one where they both love each other and the other where just the guy loves the girl. The main guy the girl wants to get with is closer to her age, traditional good-looking, good at fighting, has a good heart, blah blah blah. The other guy (who I dub the scorned one in these type of love triangles) is older, experienced, honorable, and slowly started to realize he cared for her.

Is it bad if I'm sitting there watching the drama and thinking "Girl, you can have the man you want. I'll happily take the older man lusting after you and marry him myself."

What can I say, perspective change.

The influences a fandom (or two) can do. Maybe I had this fetish earlier and just didn't realize it until the fangirl in me was brought out. Haha.
Current Location: I gotta get out more
Current Mood: mellowmellow
Current Music: 亀梨和也 - 1582
09 August 2009 @ 09:23 pm
So this is the first entry of this account. I've been a lurker of the shadows for the last few months in both the SSHG and SarahxJareth fandoms. Being an avid reader and writer, I decided that in order to fully appreciate the fandoms, I needed to write my own stories. Inspiration didn't strike on its own, at least not successfully.

I asked a person I greatly admire who writes for both fandoms to send me a few prompts for each. She graciously sent me three from each fandom. I have finished one story but haven't edited it yet. Due to her aid, I have decided to let my wonderful prompt sender to read the stories first. When she is finished, I plan on posting them if they aren't completely horrible, that is.

It may take a while, but I plan on writing all six prompts eventually. I pretty much finished one and started a second. I may decide to come back on to log my progress. I guess that's all I have to say for now.
Current Mood: artisticartistic
Current Music: the GazettE - CALM ENVY